anak pawis

we’ve been together for two years, even longer than that. i knew you since high school. i got to know you a bit. at first it was a little bumpy, trying to get used to each other but over time we were just inseparable. i always loved the smile you gave me whenever i saw you.

in college our relationship hit an obstacle. you gave me this big test just so you knew where i placed within you. according to you i was good enough, better than those before me. so the semester went on and it was getting harder and harder. i felt like i was getting distant from you. this wouldnt be the first time between us. there was always a problem at some point and it was completely my fault but it should be your fault at some point because you couldnt interest me anymore. you might blame for taking interest in others but you were getting boring, you were becoming nothing to me. to be honest, you were jus something i needed to get on with my life, jus another stepping stone. 

this semester was the worse. i hardly saw you. i was struggling so much jus to try and make something of what we have but it jus didnt work, nothing did. i look at you now and you jus disgust me. ive come to the point that i jus hate you. hate is a strong word and shouldnt be thrown around so frequently but for you, especially you, I HATE YOU. i dont know if i even should put any effort into what we have right now cuz at the end i wont see you anymore. but for some reason something tells me i should try to do something, put in jus that little bit of effort i have for you. we’ll see what happens after tomorrow.

but for now i jus wanna say fuck you, fuck you for wasting my time.

i hate you, CHEMISTRY

from your former student,

Jonathan Jay Susa

Philippines, ill be there soon